I found my flaw - the flaw where I seem tough, but inside I'm weak.

I found my flaw - the flaw where I persistently push through to get what I want, yet neglect the signs that say "it's not meant for you!"

I found my flaw - the flaw where I want what I want so bad that I fail to see that sometimes, that's not the best for me.

I found my flaw - the flaw where I suppress my emotions to the point I'm taken forgranted.

I found my flaw - the flaw where I am always negative to the point I get depressed over things that shouldn't even matter.

I am weak, but He is strong.

I am flawed, but He is perfect.

I am poor, but He is rich.

There always will be a rainbow at the end of each storm...

I'm glad to have found you...
...but I'm too afraid to love you with my whole heart.

What if I hurt me.......
...but more importantly, what if I hurt you?

I woke up this morning thinking...
..."Hell, life's too short for 'what ifs'"

Can I give you my best shot...
...without having to worry about the consequences?

Will I be able to cross that broken bridge again...
...if I ever come to it?

Like you reminded me...
..."if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it"

You're definitely the best I've ever had so far...

I refuse to be a bum like ....
I refuse to think about...
I refuse to hope for...

I just wanna be me, living my life, doing the things I like
I just want to be free, from the chains that bound.
I just wanna run and hide from the things that will not suffice
I just wanna be free...

There's no such thing as true love.
There's no such thing as attraction without distraction.
There's no such thing as illusions without disillusions.
There's always conflict...all pain but no gain.

I refuse to believe,
I refuse to see.
I refuse to hear,
I refuse to trust.

I will always be Me!

I do not need attention nor do I need sympathy. I just want to yell into space. I wish I had enough cash to hire a shrink. What better way than to get an instant best friend - someone who listens and knows exactly what to say.

I'm tired of crying my eye balls out after a long day of work. I'm tired of being pushed aside. I'm tired of being blamed for every mistake made. I'm tired of living. I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine. I'm tired of smiling when inside I'm dying.

Maybe some pills would numb the pain... Maybe physical pain can help numb out some of the emotions... Maybe I could try asphyxiating myself by holding my breath... Maybe the love from my family is the only thing that's keeping my sanity...

Random, I'm pure RANDOM

I didn't notice I was that RANDOM till my beloved cousin bro pointed it out to me. I didn't even notice that D-Ling's also THAT RANDOM like me... till my cousin pointed it out AGAIN.

Seriously, there are like a million things that run through my mind at a single time and I'm pretty sure the things I think about pop right out of my mouth sooner or later. Nope, it's not a good thing because I confuse the people around me with my constant switching and jumping between topics. Nyahaha. But I like it~~ nyahaha

Well, life's been pretty much on the up side lately. Prolly coz there is less miscommunication between us... and prolly coz I'm spending too much time and money LEPAK-ing. I know, time to get a job. But my holiday's just begun!? I mean, my convocation isn't even anytime soon...so why the rush? Well, I'm kind of waiting for a company to get back to me with a suitable posting, but meanwhile..why hunt? Like I told my dad, "I'm shopping for a job". Better choose something I'm gonna be happy with so I would be a benefit to the company rather than jump into something I do not want..and be a burden to the company.

Ah well, that's life. I get annoyed when I'm deliberately ignored... and I get even more annoyed that these people actually come right up a couple of days later, as if nothing ever happened. Ah well, again, THAT'S LIFE. Annoyance is nothing more than an ant bite I can brush off anytime with some MOPIKO. Lepak- lah!! That's my moto at the moment.

I guess I'm done being random. If I go on, I'll annoy you (yes, you, the reader) even more....

Was planning on playing a game with this someone..but too bad...that person is in the "ignoring" mood right now...so yeah, too bad..you don't know what you're missing! hahahha

I am but a girl

But I refuse to be defeated.
I stand shoulders broad and fire-y eyed,
Confident and sure that I shall not be defeated.

I do not have the right to question..
nor do I have the right to be unsatisfied.

I see a wall breaking down,
I can do nothing about it.
I give warnings, but am not heeded.
I try to fix it, but am hampered.

My good will is read as ill will,
My concerns blown away by the wind,
My troubles drowned in insults.

Why is my race branded as second?
Where did this stamp come from?
God made Eve from Adam,
BUT JESUS MADE US EQUAL.

The verse always reads "Women submit to your husbands"
But why is "husbands, love your wives" always ignored?
CHRIST MADE MEN AND WOMEN EQUAL.

Jesus loves me..
I love me..
Why should I be defeated just because I am a girl?

Who am I to question you?

I really wonder if my choice was one of disobedience to God. Am I paying the price for it now? I wonder.

A choice made, an action taken... yet one that I choose to enjoy rather than regret. Why? At least it made me happy... at least I did not ruin someone's relationship... at least someone appreciates and cares to elaborate, even if it's skin deep.

There's a tree, and a man with an axe. The tree believes that he's strong enough to even withstand the hacking of the man with the axe. He believes that he will not fall. Is it wrong for the tree's owner to set up a fence to protect the tree from the man with the axe? Is it wrong for the owner of the tree to know that the tree will eventually fall with persistent hacking?

Who am I to question you? I'm just a girl with limitless dreams and ambition; fearless. But who am I? I am just a girl bounded by the constrains of an asian society - of a society that will always put men above women, no matter how advanced this generation has become. The only way to achieve without limit and be happy is for this girl to loose the chains that bind..... then, I shall be free.